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fifth april.

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let's chase the summer and forget the world.

grad night tmr at hilton. hmm. okay the ending note to our nanyang life. okay i just hope i dont look horrid. it's gonna be a night to remember.

-masquerade.

come whatever,we will still be friends forever;

had a good six hours worth of dance practice today. 9 to 12. break for lunch and then 130 to 430. okay i've got bruises here and there scratch marks and muscle aches but hahha im surprised it actually felt good! (: tiring but fun. another two sessions on sat and tues. okay i hope at least it will be fun. (:

work tomorrow!! ultimate boredness. the only thing thats actually keeping me going now is the cash. i desperately need it for xmas presents and stuff. not to mention stuff for the new year. ughhh. okay. working is damn tough and it made me realise how much i'd rather study. actually i realised that last year during wep attachment to makansutra but i guess over the course of a year that realisation faded or something. strive on all people working (like jiayi!) jiayou we will make it. RAH.

went back to studio today but since it was rather early, didnt get to see alot of juniors and then we gotta rush off to our own practice. i miss the studio studio studio! anyway we got our dance tees today (: miss nymd, but i hope in the near future i will love mad as much as i love nymd toooo. hmm. i miss the studio, got to see some of the juniors but somehow i think it just isnt the same as when we were actually part of them. part of the studio. now we're actually looking in as outsiders i guess and ah well. i will remember nymd forever. (:

looking forward to grad night! although hahha i am totally unprepared for it. haven even gotten the dress and yeah today my mummy brought us down to town (blue moon today) i wanted to show her the dresses! but as expected we didnt get much done anyway with my brother around. he was throwing tantrums. but it ended alright in the end (: i donated money to this community chest thing. just felt like it. maybe its the christmas lightings and stuff around hmm and it was all so pretty maybe it made me feel generous. then when my sister and i went to put coins into this box they had in front of some display set, there were sweets and xmas badges. this woman came to us and said we could take them and there were like two designs for the badges, one an xmas tree and one a snowman (: then i was asking my sister which one does she want cos both look nice. the woman overheard and guess what she said. "if you like both, you can have them. they are for people with loving kind hearts (: " and this sentence kinda stuck in my head even till now. people with loving kind hearts. sounds so true hmm? like no matter how much you put inside the box, it's actually why you did it that mattered. haha i actually feel kind of inspired :D

written in the stars;

hoho people. my life is currently crammed up with stuff. dance work dance work eat sleep cip go out but i haven really gone out for sooo long! and there are alot of stuff i really want to do but haven gotten down to doing them. like going out with the dancers. see xuee yunning and joanne soon. watch step upppp. meet up with jess. meet up with sherrmin! get together with serene june shermin, hopefully. outing with cousins! 403 gathering. i really hope i can like live this holidays meaningfully and stuff. i want to do alot of things and i dont want the holidays to just slip by. next year will be another new start. another phase of our lives. hmm and i need to buy alot of stuff. anyway i hate working so yeah. i cant stand sitting down and wasting my entire day away it feels like im wasting my life away so yeah. but for the money. whatever.

grad night is next week!! :D have been going round with jiayuan to look for dresses and she bought hers today but im still undecided and i just realised today with work and dance there's actually no time left for me to get the necessary stuff ready for grad night so i gotta like cram in some time here and there somehoww.

dance at hwachong is from 9 to 5 tmr! i think it will be tough aah i hope i can survive. two more such sessions on saturday and next tues. oh going back to nymd tmr to get them our dear dance tees!!! :D :D :D oh man i sooo look forward to seeing them! and hopefully we'll get some time to play around and talk and maybe dance to the songs we all loveee. I LOVE THE DANCERSS. nymd is lovvvveeelyy. <3

the way i lost my heart to you that day;

i was just reading this book from the sweet valley high series. hahha i knw its so primary school. but i had nothing to do. but well i found it rather meaningful and telling. below is just a small part of it (one name changed to avoid complications). which got me thinking. mostly about dance i guess.

Sara leaped high into the air, flipping backward with a perfect landing. Then she flawlessly executed the rest of the routine. Jessica felt her stomach cave in and slumped miserably against the hard bench. "She's really good, you know that, Ken? Sara is really good," Jessica said, shaking her head in despair. Her self-esteem had climbed up to almost normal again after Ken had come by to see her, her parents had pledged their support, and Elizabeth had unveiled her plan. But now, watching Sara glide in and easily take her place on the squad, Jessica's self-worth took another nosedive. "Maybe i don't deserve my cocaptain position back, " Jessica said. "Maybe I've always kidded myself about how good I was, and how valuable I was to the squad." "Sara looks good out there," Ken admitted. "But she's an ice princess. She does all the moves all right, but there's something missing." "There is?" Jessica asked hopefully. Ken nodded. "She's technically perfect, but it's like she's out there to show off. It doesn't seem like she cares about inspiring the crowd and the players," Ken said. "Everyone is applauding Sara's performance, but do you see people really fired up and jumping to their feet?" "No, i guess not," Jessica said, looking around the stands. Ken: "No one can sit still when you do a solo cheer."


the above was very thought provoking cos thats what we all learnt in nanyang modern dance huh. in nymd, nothing ever mattered more than passion. your love for dance, enjoyment during dancing. mr raj cares about our dance and more importantly, he cared about us. our attitude and way towards life. he taught us how to dance, and also how to live. but what i am seeing now is all so different. now it's not us that matters the most. it's the steps the execution the techniques. it's like telling me that the past two years with mr raj has all been nothing. it doesnt feel right at all and this sucks.

in nymd we were never alone. we are always together. a group. dancemates whom you knw will stick through thick and thin with you. when we fail, they clap they cheer. you feel the encouragement the love the passion. the bond. i wonder where did all of that trust and belief went to.

i miss mr raj.

i want my nanyang modern dance troupe back. ):

when all i had was a hat full of stars;

mhmm. had five days at A*Star this week and today's the last day. haha the lectures were really kinda boring sometimes at some points. like we cldnt really get the technical terms and their different accents and slangs and whatnots. haha then had to do this programming thing on some software called python. hah my grp was wanteng litang and me! :D :D :D HAHA okay the first 3 days were spent slacking in the dear pantry. loitering around with our milo and mocha and teh tarik. we didnt even knw anything and it was quite bad, especially when you see all the other grps doing work and we have a presentation on friday! well then on thurs we finally figured out stuff and were rushing presentation till like seven plus. not too bad considering we only realised what to do at like four plus haha so we did the whole thing in three hours! (: presentation today was very amusing haha although there wasnt much of content well but at least the audience was well entertained :D okay i guess the attachment wasnt quite bad. plus points: ALOT ALOT ALOT of tea breaks (with good food) very patient professor (: who didnt mind us surfing blogs and chatting on messenger when we were supposed to be doing stuff, bridge with gang before starting work, nescafe machine which kept us awake, pantry, LI ZHI'S FANCLUB! HAHA and although the starting we were all totally like = = yeah but of cos im glad i've learnt something throughout this attachment. and made new friends!!! :D the management canteen at nus was rather good too with good food at affordable rates :D but well i think some people in the group hate me. if anyone of you see this, im sorry! for not paying much attention during the lectures but thats me and aah. anything. okay i have my dearies from our fanclub! who actually have a life (: so glad for my friends really <3

bathed in your golden light;

type your reactions.
WHY ARE YOU ALWAYS LIKE THAT?
what!

I JUST REALIZED NOW THAT I LOVE YOU
awwww.

LEAVE HIM ALREADY. YOULL BE MUCH MORE HAPPY WITH ME
yeahyeah.

COME ON. SMILE. YOURE CUTE WHEN YOU DO THAT
(stone) -.-

PLEASE DO MY MATH HOMEWORK TOO
yahyah.

I AM SO BLESSED TO HAVE SOMEONE LIKEYOU
haha,me too(:

WHY DOES MONDAY COME BEFORE TUESDAY?
how i knw.

I HAVE TWO TICKETS TO THE LINKIN PARK CONCERT. WANNA COME WITH ME?
of course!

YOU ARE ONE OF THE MOST SPECIAL PEOPLE IN MY LIFE. DID YOU KNOW THAT?
hmmmm.

I THINK IM FALLING FOR YOU
okay lor.

I CANT SMILE WITHOUT YOU
awwww.

THANK YOU FOR EVERYTHING, BUT YOU JUST ARENT HIM HER
hmmm.

WHATS YOUR MOBILE NUMBER?
lalalalalalalalala

CAN I HAVE THIS DANCE?
sure!

MAY I ESCORT YOU?
(stone) -.-

YOU STILL LOVE HER HIM TILL NOW
whattt.

YOU WERE EVERYTHING, EVERYTHING I WANTED
i love you(:

WHEN WILL I GET YOUR SWEET EYES
siao.

HAHAHAHAHAH THIS IS SO RETARDED. okay i think im such a diao person. i dont really respond with anything constructive. hmm! hahahahahh very funny though (:

oh dance at hwachong today(: the seniors were really nice to buy us pizza heeheehee aaaaaah but i think i cant catch up with the dance and stufff. its really contemporary and really ballet and technical and i cant do. aaaah im screwed. okay, then today the legs didnt really hurt much. the previous time was... memorable xp okay. just realised haven went back to nanyang studio for some time. should go back soon, i want to see the juniors! (:

终于还是走到这一天
要奔向各自的世界
没人能取代记忆中的你
和那段青春岁月
一路我们曾携手并肩
用汗和泪写下永远
拿欢笑荣耀换一句誓言
夜夜在梦里相约
放心去飞勇敢地去追
追一切我们未完成地梦
放心去飞勇敢地挥别
说好了这一次不掉眼泪

hmm. listening to this really emo chinese song right nw. read the lyrics (encoding unicode UTF-8) and yeah its basically talking about how people are taking on separate paths from now on to take flight, to pursue their own dreams. and the promise to never drop a tear. ahh. guess it kinda applies to us nw. bunny had this ppt for mrs see today and while the slideshow is on this song is playing. taps are turned on and we all started crying. the photos, the memories. of 303'05 and 403'06. mr ingham. mrs see. graces camp. teacher's day. city heritage trail. graduation ceremony. we've come a long way. it is really sad. today we went back to nanyang to collect our report book (oh shit i just realised i lost my chinese dictionary oh shit shit shit) and yeah. we were in the classroom then started taking photos and stuff. did some crazy stuff. that was the last time i will step into the 403 classroom i suppose. when we were walking out i took one last glance at the classroom. guess it carried with it just so much memories.

mrs see gave us each chocolate and a card today. it was really sweeet of her. it funny how we haven even seen much of her and the year is gone. yeah we gave her handmade slippers/hangers, home-baked brownie and of course, the slideshow too. the slideshow with so many photos and so much memories with a really sad but meaningful song which made all of us cry. guess the memories are precious because they carry with them our other commitments. i guess thats that. without them our memories will never mean so much. our stories.

and we promised never to drop a tear;